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Friday, January 22, 2010

Confrontation

There's a major staff movement and im the key personnel, going to work in the US timing. This cause a uproar as my colleagues are not happy...affecting the morning shift as well as the noon shift which im currently in.

Why they are upset?

The stupid boss do not ask for opinions, but merely impose this decision on us. There is no room for negotiation. His favorite phrase "I'm flexible, but not that flexible", "I know where ur coming from"...Save the crap from your pie hole.

2nd, as im one of the most efficient worker or slave, removing me will certainly increase the work load of others as they need to do my job.

3rd, i kinda miss my colleagues in the morning shift, so sad...i wont be able to see them, chat with them

The only benefit i see is i can go interviews during the day without applying for leave.

I really want to leave this crap place...i read a survey that people often leave because of their boss, it seems true in my case...i was hoping it will be another reason, i left because there is a better job out there. i want to leave this place as a bird with strong wings rather than a convict release from a prison.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Hunger for balance and M&M

Finally settled my bills, send my hp for repairs, miss out going to the gym. Guess i have to make it up tomorrow. Time to trim the fats. Saw a opera episode, she mention about her long battle with weight, it turns out, she was hunger for balance.

Hunger for balance. Everyone's balance is different. But guess, u cant sell yr life away at work. U need something to fill up your remaining life span. That's where interest, love, passion in the things u do, take up and balance your time on earth.

Love...v day is coming. M&M, i called them. I once told her over the FB to take care of him, soon he break off, now is with her, the golden couple. Compatibility, guy is charming, gal is sweet, almost like a magazine cover. Sometimes u cant argue that they design for each other.

There was a email to vote whether Ms M is flirtatious. I'm the first to reply with a +1 vote, almost ended the email in a disaster with c.c to almost the whole group of people i'm working with. Luckily, phew..save by other replies to make the whole email seems like a waste of time rubbish thingy.

Time to focus on sending resume, hope i get on something soon.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Last 365th day to 2010

Was at the office till 12mn. i can still remember wat happened on the same nite last yr, i was at the office as well, with her. We didnt talk much. I remember the show was pocahontas. She commented she like the song, Colours of the Wind. Well, 2day i guess most probably she with new bf, haha, my wish did came true, she become happy...as depicted in my favourite song, "My Wish"

Well, head dwn to marina bay, hopefully can catch some shots of this event. I wasnt good at navigating, thus i decided to use the mrt underpass to fullerton. I was expecting heavy human traffic, but this time round, i cant move, i was just stuck before heading to the cross junction when u choose which exit to go. i was stuck midway just entering the tunnels. Unbelievable!

I have to walk back and go round about. I duno where im going, but heading to the direction where music is play. The concert last till 3 in the morning.

Saw many foreigners, ang mos, drunk, ladies some more, with heels, throwing their straw hat around, shouting happy new year, more like chirping. Couples kissing, hugging. I saw one hot couple, the guy was squeezing the butt of his gf, and then his finger...u know, i guess i dont have to explain it. He did it twice, before the gf get abit agitatied.

Well, i also saw the pinoy idol, not the finalist, the 3rd one that get voted off, her distinctive face makes her stand out among the crowd. i was like...m i blurred or is it her. She looked cold, walking to the raffles city direction. she looked glum, perhaps of the long nite of hosting, saw her at the countdown program when im in the office.

Finally, reach merlion park, took shots around 1hr plus. I knew im going to regret without a tripod. Despite missing the fireworks, the floating balls or wishes, in the river was a view, with different colours reflecting on them. In the day, they do not stand out, but at nite, with the colour lights, they light up the river. Some shots that manage to turn up "ok". Not really please with the shots. ITs the camerman problems, not the camera. Loading it later.

Space of Pics

Going back was tiring, took the nite rider, which take 1hr plus to reach home. Wats worse was there is a teen, keep talking, complainting abt the slow traffic, as if he is the radio dj, reporting the traffic flow along the roads. Whoa, shut up!!!! I wonder how come his friends can take his shit!

Well, make my blood boils, i worked for 1 full day, tired now, and have to hear his big mouth for 1 hr...his voice was so loud that it was inviting stares from behind the bus. Even im the bus driver, hearing his complain abt the slow bus, traffic, i surely be pisses. SHUT UP!!!. Ok i now, y m i doing this now, ok, i dunwan to start my new year or mess with someone new yr by scolding them. Tats y i have to vend it here. ok.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Youtube interactive and new goals

Its something i can play abt, unleash my imagination, using still photos, incorporating choices, making it a game, a drama, a sim city version or perhaps informative.

The goal of making a "SIMS GIRL" SG version is tempting, but, before that, i will have to make a few simple version, to win people to believe my cause and conviction to make it reality.

Still photos, videos can be use, this will allow me to play with my dslr, increase my desire to explore this island different places at different timing, to capture beautiful or timeless pics that one will feel is this SG?

UndergroundDV video has inspire me to take this project. Using disney land, hk local flavors and cute gals to make it a nice video that one will enjoy, mixing with popular game music,popular themes of otaku nature, i find it vy fun to play with, perhaps to curb the inner desire of what is it like not to get rejected.

All right, on with this, a long term video project, need to decide to theme to start. A short term one which is typical funny, but with a theme and plot as well.

And finally, funds, coming from 4everbloom flower at Vday? I promise myself to make a paper rose, but hasnt been successful and gave up after sometime as i cant make it before her bday...but i gave up the idea even before wanting to make one.

Looks like i can use those paper i bought after all, hopefully, it can be successful. Slight less than 1 mth now. With the green campaign going on, using paper plup will be great, saving cost.

Will it be talk or action? Time will be the judge

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Xmas eve

2nd yr in the row to do shift on this day. Kinda sucks when clients call in to ask lame questions.

Went for the xmas lunch with colleagues this noon, it was kinda nice.

Hazi...lonely lonely xmas...

Where shld i go...after im done...head to town with my trusted camera?

Selavi

Merry Xmas everyone!

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Sane

It was fun. Perhaps im the one who went there to play with them, instead of them asking to play.

Some of them kept to themselves, being void of contacts from the outsiders for a longtime.

Twight 4 Xmas

Bought the book New moon and has been reading it on the way to work. Its a easy read and it stirs my memories and emotion, while i recall the movie scenes. The main leading actor, "Edward" as well as the rest of the gang, "Alice" etc, all closely follow the novel very well.

I wish for a the first book Twight as a gift for the corporate xmas gift exchange. Now, i need to find the 3rd book, Eclipse.

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A typical underdog among the 6.6 billion homo sapiens who seeks to spend its remaining time to bring happiness to his loved ones. Constantly questioning how much and when is enough to attain a balance of success n happiness and to define one's purpose of existance instead conforming to unspoken society's pressures n norms.