Accident that came

A sec later or earlier, will change my life.

I may end up in the coffin or i may end up going to work normally.

Been doing nothing for almost a week, just basic survival skills like eating, sleeping.

When im old, and there is no one to take care of me, what will happen?

Am i goin to stay at home whole day and rot? What can i do to make myself better off?

Relationship has become stale due to this accident. She has been good. I cant be expecting more, as i cant give her more.