23th july to 4th Sept

Got into accident around 23th Sept, going back to the work force tomorrow.

That is about a month away from civilization interaction.

Had been wasting my time away. Grow fat, play wow, on and off looking at share prices but lost money.

Mentally and physically, i feel I'm not capable to go back to work. But i need to bring in money right? Cant depend on my parent...a parent to put food on the table, and my transport and medical bills to pay...with no assurance that my claims will be successful.

Didn't expect life after the accident to change so drastically. Feel like a old uncle. The only reason to live, is to help my family ease the financial burden, that's the only thing i can do, despite being uncomfortable.

This yr suppose to be a very good year for me, a year for the people who born under the year of dog. Ya...got retrench last year, bounced back to work within a month, a contract job which i don't like, but i endure and found a better job which is financially attractive...and that's all to it. Its all about the $, no passive whatso ever.

But the accident came, took away my "freedom", my way of life. My clock in life seem to reset. I have come clean with the woman who accompany me during this time. I can't give her what she wanted...and I'm in this state, trust cant be maintained...its seem to be for the better.

Friends seems clearer, who are the ones who really care, and who don't. But the world don't revolved around you. So i should stop becoming so petty.

This will be my toughest challenge in my life...going back to work in clutches, enduring the new environment with a handicap, a difficult task of defering my in camp training which has no results yet and a 2nd operation.

I have started praying to the deity in my house which i stopped since i'm in secondary school. I need some luck, to have a better fortune in my route ahead.