what if "reality" is what u percived it to be?

How real is yr percerived reality? Can some1 else in yr same situation factors with all the same variables, turn out to be the same?

What if u can just simply choose to be happy regardless of what happen to u...u can simply change the outlook of the world u look.

Y u choose to be unhappy, unsatisfied? y do u compare to others better than not comparing to others who r worse off? Society benchmarks? Does it matter? If u can choose do be, y dont u? Is it because ur deciving yrself hey im happy although the situation im at shitty? What if ur ill, yr bankcrupt, yr family, lovers, friends, leave u, what if ur burn in a fire, but ur alive in the bed with 80 degree burn, disfigured, amputated, been to jail, kill some1, done a terrible thing to a person living in the Earth, kill an ant which possess the right the live, or indirect action which cause harm to others, killing the Earth, Can u still bluff or pyscho yrself to feel better of the mess u make or situation u worse off than others? Can u?
R u choosing to live in a lie due to being optimistic or self delusion?

In transistion stages, such as moving on from a new stage of life cycle to another, or big decisions, perhaps ppl will have a tendency to lost their directions due to the spolit of choices, their extend of their capability against the general competitors of the same species, and the time they r at making the choices.

Theres no ans to whats real and whats not, cos we r humans...our thoughts and feelings r rule by 2 different organs (although i read some articles some parts of our brain control our feeling or can recall how we shld react to this feeling stimulation). Weird is that we can have a heart transplant, a change of heart, but we cant have a brain transplant, perhaps theres already a brain transplant which i duno off.

Cant help it dealing wit reality

So wat is r u diligent, discipline, or processed Confucius's attitude or "good" working attitude..does it matter? So wat u r graduated, so wat ur gd in wat u doing?
Does the factor of luck plays a part? Is it a excuse to use "hey, no luck" as a excuse for the unexpected results when u have really did what u need to do? Does the eyes of others, or judgement of others upon yr results determine who u really r? Or is it u who think u r wat u r matters? Can 1 be truely independent w/o conforming to society norms and pressures in this modern world? I truely dnt knw what i typing. Perhaps im frustrated since HOPE is like a illusion which will temporary keep u running, but the destination is not u expect to be.

Hope can only last so long...upon that limit, hope will just be nothing. Whats so bloody impt abt geting a job? To work to spend your time on Earth worthwhile? To earn a living to get food on the table? To ease emergencies when the health insurance cant compensate u due to yr neglience in reading the small prints? To amass wealth to support yr "future" goals that is yet to realise? Yr kids education? Yr aging parents? Yr social life? Yr bills? Yr taxes? To a higher degree, the check issue to u determines how much u worth to the society, ur existence of being here at this time, yr value is to sit in the office, processing stuff, admin work, spending 9-5, cramping in the cubicle. After work, rush to the mrt? Is it bcos u wan to save the environment by not taking taxi, by not buying car, or because u dont have the POWER.

Power, in modern times, money is power. Humans have evolve from caveman to modern "civilise" beings, create a society, rule by law which are mend to be broken by those with power. Power has change from brute strength to the information, money, high intellect. These are the new power.

Pursuit of Happyness

Yup..the title of the show isnt wrong, its happyness instead of happiness.

Its a true story. Its about Christopher Gardner, a businessman who purchase his own goods and store the goods in his home, and went ard hospitals to sell his products (hes selling a bone density scanner).

His luck ran out, its hard to sell, he run out of cash, end up being homeless, deserted by his wife (not so sure abt tis), left with his kid, living in churchs, mrt toilets, mrt. He later went for an intership with a brokage with no basic pay and after 6 mths, will he then knw he will be accepted anot..its was a tough time, as his broke, he got a kid, and he need to study for the papers, hit the sales quota, and the managemen giving him problem. Its really tough being him. He later succeed attaining the job and in the later years, he set up his own investment firm and become wealthy.

some quotes that are memorable such as this following (taken from http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0454921/quotes)

Christopher Gardner: It was right then that I started thinking about Thomas Jefferson on the Declaration of Independence and the part about our right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I remember thinking how did he know to put the pursuit part in there? That maybe happiness is something that we can only pursue and maybe we can actually never have it. No matter what. How did he know that?

Christopher Gardner: You got a dream... You gotta protect it. People can't do somethin' themselves, they wanna tell you you can't do it. If you want somethin', go get it. Period.

Now im having this goal, of being able just to set off in a position in the financial industry...i do not wish to give up till i try whether im suitable for this work in this sector. Comparing the pitfalls bet Christ and me, haha...i seem so weak...afther viewing the show, seems to give me some hope.

heres the streaming version http://www.megavideo.com/?v=HVE2FDE1 , haha watch it soon since its still available if ur interested.

Facebook

Face book is fun..much better than friendster...its more than connecting ppl u knw, it abt getting to knw them better thru programs, application, knwing their likes and dislikes, their choices of preference, sending gifts, communicating with them, despite ur not with them physically.

currently playing ard with pirates (getting bored, but luv te thought of having a crew sailing ard the world, exploring treasures and fighting opponents. also the Flirting program..haha...ya rite..u tink im sicko rite..actualy its jus sending messages to ppl "jus for fun", "im yr future ex", harmeless quotes...there r definitely some nice babes there..but who knws those photos are fake, anyway, jus someting to divert. Y engross in a pixel when theres a low chance of meeting them physically? Well..fear of rejection, fear of not being the real u, its always easy to hide behind a pixel.

Recently watch a old anime call "his and her story", there is this line" if i am to be hurt by some1, i rather that person to be u"

Thus acceptance of rejection, can be seen in a optimistic manner. Back to reading my book, neglect for some time due to face book....wake up man...wake up

Changing job for my mum

My mum has been working hard and complaining abt her colleges, her sup abt poor working attitude and bias, unfair work allocation...blah blah...this is wat happen when the worker dont hav the power of bargaining as u r easily replace by any ah gao, ah mao in the street.

Accompany her, at age over 55, to look for a job, and finally, she got 1...YA...finaly out of that hell place...Hope those her colleges will miss the her when shes off to a better working environment. Let them suffer...haHAHAHAH

losing in the test of patience

yipeee...still searching for job. just send in 2 applications...

Went for a interview earlier this week, now still waiting for confirmation for a 2nd interview if i make it thru. Thus if by next tue i dnt get any reply, haha...CONGRATS, U R OUT!!! Hope at least they call me to reject me...

y? Y some ppl can get job in their first try, while others need wait so long. Y some..the list can goes on. Life is suppose to be random, abt chance..

Hazi, 1 of m fren tell he got a fren who has been jobless for 7 mths, and he just found work in Credit Sussis (tis is 1 sem b4 me), geting 4k pay, including allowance. He also bump into another friend, now working in Stand Chart (tis is grad same time as me) Hazi..gd for them loh...

Gd news is thats theres a career fair by job db sg in suntec..haha...based on my experience of send abt nearly 60 - 80 plus resumes within a span of 2.5mth period, i tink tis career fair is just like visiting its website, only im not viewing the job opportunities online, but viewing them physically. so makes no diff in the probability they hiring u.

Purpose of new year?

New year marks the finish of 1 complete revolution of the earth around the sun. Does it meant anything more? Y people celebrate? Whats the main underlying reasons among the main population?

For the working class, perhaps, its worth celebrating because of the holiday, new year and new year eve. It can also be for the bonuses, for the partying. Who knows?

For the businesses, it meant more holiday sales, the closure of the accounting books (varies according since theres also the financial year).

For the media, to sum up all the ups and downs of the year, boardcasting all the fireworks around the world, telling the world how good is the last year was. Congratuations!!! Come on...

For the family, it doesnt not take the new year, or even festivals to do something nice to each other, it should be a everyday thing, not just a one time event...i do feel these festivals now hold little meaning to me that is...

Another question: Did the earth complete its revolution around the sun in 365 days or did it not? Did the expansion of the universe, the collapsing of stars, the gapping black holes, the super novas change any variables that affect the gravationation force that maintain this revolution?