Cant help it dealing wit reality

So wat is r u diligent, discipline, or processed Confucius's attitude or "good" working attitude..does it matter? So wat u r graduated, so wat ur gd in wat u doing?
Does the factor of luck plays a part? Is it a excuse to use "hey, no luck" as a excuse for the unexpected results when u have really did what u need to do? Does the eyes of others, or judgement of others upon yr results determine who u really r? Or is it u who think u r wat u r matters? Can 1 be truely independent w/o conforming to society norms and pressures in this modern world? I truely dnt knw what i typing. Perhaps im frustrated since HOPE is like a illusion which will temporary keep u running, but the destination is not u expect to be.

Hope can only last so long...upon that limit, hope will just be nothing. Whats so bloody impt abt geting a job? To work to spend your time on Earth worthwhile? To earn a living to get food on the table? To ease emergencies when the health insurance cant compensate u due to yr neglience in reading the small prints? To amass wealth to support yr "future" goals that is yet to realise? Yr kids education? Yr aging parents? Yr social life? Yr bills? Yr taxes? To a higher degree, the check issue to u determines how much u worth to the society, ur existence of being here at this time, yr value is to sit in the office, processing stuff, admin work, spending 9-5, cramping in the cubicle. After work, rush to the mrt? Is it bcos u wan to save the environment by not taking taxi, by not buying car, or because u dont have the POWER.

Power, in modern times, money is power. Humans have evolve from caveman to modern "civilise" beings, create a society, rule by law which are mend to be broken by those with power. Power has change from brute strength to the information, money, high intellect. These are the new power.