2nd thoughts

There is a food distribution event on sun, but i turn it down as its too early. N sat im goin to be a regular of another group.

Begin to have 2nd thoughts, do i want to survey that area bcos its sort of taboo to me, or i really want to help. Perhaps its more like to want to know more about myself, facing this situation, whether m i normal or m i like one of them, who needs help, seeking them for answers by observing, being with them.

70 cent for a bowl of rice!!!

Went to eat salmon hotplate from cavana express and order another bowl of additional rice. It cost 70 cent!!! I told the lady it is so expensive. She replied if i have not bought the meal, the rice will cost 1 dollar!!!

How much it cost for a bowl of normal rice? 50 cent at the coffee shop? 70 cent is a rip off!

From my experience in Japan, so far i been to 2 restaurants, the rice has been free flow. Ok, im in Singapore now. I been to the new shopping mall at Sommerset, think is 313, there is also another Japanses restaurant that offer free flow of rice, even though i didnt actually ask for it.

Hazi, this is the last time im going to patron this stall.

New goals for the year or repeating old unaccomplish ones

Ya, having a credit card make life easy, can buy stuff online, perhaps time to invest in a different hobby.

Bought a DSLR for photography, taking buildings, scenery, kawaii mei mei, people, anything that will make me want to snap. Going to invest in lenes, perhaps longer range type. Well, have to wait for my pay check or bounus....hazi, no luck in changing job.

Going to learn driving. Feels outdated, most of my friends they have a license. Well, time to get one, since i have time to make the trip down, end decemeber, Basic theory test, here i come,

National skin center, want to retain my hair..haha...y have i become so vain, nah, im not, perhaps i want to look young, thats all. Book an appointment, hopefully it will reply me. Google many hair growing services, seems like general review arent good, better consult NSC.

Otaku, m i? Feels like i have 2 much money to spend if i went to buy PVC figures. Want to get a Seras Victoria figureine. I will need to buy air pump, air brush, paint, to paint it, perhaps if im good, i can resell it, along with my other Mecha models, some, which i didnt open. M i becoming to otaku cos i dont have much social activites? I being to understand that social interaction to me seems like much of a time wasting event only when there is some exchange going on..basically. But im not like tat all the time.

Social activities, what shld i endulge in? Hmm, hip hop dancing seems nice, but cant find a time slot due to my work commitments...how....headache. Kickboxing, or evolve marital arts seems to rough, im ugly enough, dont want to make matters worst, haha. So, what activities i like to learn as well increase my social circle?? Food for thought for te next yr...

Voluntery activies, only been to one activity when i volunteer as a misc helper for a forum. Now, there is a chance for me to be serious contributer to a organisation. Need to write a letter on why i choose to do this for this organisation, what is my motive. My reason is i want to understand view from the other party, how they percive life around them. Told this to a close buddy, he says my reason is wrong. Do i really want to help them??? Or is it i want to gain something from them???

Sucker

im a sucker for praise...haha...feels gd

Being on mc for 1 day, and returning back feels like they treasure me even more...perhaps i clear more "sai".

People calling my alias, teasing me, and Atas asking me what happen to me, why im on mc, as much as i want to fanatise that she is interested in me...haha...but i know she is the sort who cares....but ultimately shes concern, thats all i care.

But so what....haha...

Market worth

After the interview, i have a general idea on how things work at the other houses compared to mine. I feel how sad that others have a wider supportive backup while ours are doom to die if anything happen.

Hazi...the HR manager was asking me, how come im asking for such a huge pay increment. Guess she is shock when i replied her at the amont of overtime claims im getting. Crossing to a different company, the feeling of getting interview is different. Im asking for compensation to leave this company to join yours, but not im begging to enter yours.

Chances are if they are willing to pay the price, will i still consider? I really went there just to test my market worth

Hope i will be hopping to a foreign mnc.

To go further down this path or to choose another?

Generalisation or specialization? If i am to continue in this field, most likely i will not be able to switch easily to another. Sending resumes to other related fields seems useless as there are no replies except typical insurance sales agents.

Leaving for a better job? Define better? Life isnt about how much money u can earn, but about doing what u love, that should be the end destination. I tink i know whats important, sadly, i didnt progress much.

Time to gather inspiration for a birthday poem.

Mix thoughts

Its only when u decide to do something, u realise its not a simple decision to do it.

2mor will be heading for a interview, but somehow i dont feel comfortable about it, perhaps i just want to test my market value? Im not the sort of person who will try on clothes without the intention of buying. Cos it waste my time as well as the other person.

But decision as a job hunt, career switch or progression to another new level, guess i cant avoid finding out more on the interview itself.

I hope i can get the expected paycheck i want, perhaps, i feel better going off without the variable bonus.