She came

with Mr S.

I knew it, he is a good catch after all, rich, well manner.

I drank duno how many shots of voka at a poker game, just to vent my own frustration, why is it that i cant get what i want, but i know that if im her, i will chose him as well...admiting my own defeat to a better player.

Life isnt suppose be fair, the best player win.

Im not her friend, im not her colleague, im not someone she knew...im just a stranger...like many others...

i want to be drunk, to puke like no tomorrow...im a fool.

a bloody fool.