how did i get here?

"how did i get here", a book i borrowed, which i hope i can seek my answers to questions.

My collegues had asked me a few times, whether do i enjoy working here, haha..looks like to them, i do hate working. But isn't this the position you want to be, initially?

Haha...achieving your dreams, living your dreams are 2 separate issues. If you want to be a dealer, a chef, nurse, doctor, lawyer, each has its own difficulties...

shld i leave...i'm not sure...i much wanted to leave, but i duno where to turn to, where should i go, having know myself i cant be as free as a bird if i stay in this industry. Being sandwitch between the corporation and client, some can take it, some cant.

I'm too stiff for this industry, perhaps, its the mentallity thing, emotion aspect about myself that makes me unsuitable for this line of work.