Shift work starts

Reach home ard 1230am I think. Run past the empty walkway in the raffles exchange and waited for 5mins for the last train to arrive...

The shift work is not as taxing as the normal hours, with the main bulk of "arrows" being tanked by the efficient people in the morning.

Still...even its much relaxing...i cant based on this reason to decide whether i want to stay on with this work life for another year. Probation is ending in the end of the month.

Test required to pass i havnt clear it yet. Mistakes or incoming disputes seems to be unavoidable. It doesnt seem reasonable for every entry, order to be make perfect with clt's instruction, answer every request, enquiries with perfect accuracy and assurance. As much as I want to help, aid clients, the same system that depends on clt's patronage also hinders the clt's access to this system due to other issues and interest of the company.

My logic, common sense, ability to adapt, dont work well here in this system...although with time, one will eventually get used to it.

Question is do i want to stay on, work for 1 year in this line, this position and move on to greener pasture in this industry which is regulated. Is the money, the enjoyment of doing the work, amount of personal time, work achievement or other factors are more important in deciding your work choice?

1 thing i know is that i dont like disputes, handling clt's complaints, and the 1st line of defence is me. Irregardless how well some1 is handling the daily issues, there bound to be mistakes that we didnt notice, or even miscommunication between the parties and I, that will lead to unpleasant experience. Departments will draw lines to protect their own interest and clearly you alone, have to take the responsibility and listen to the music. How about work recognisation? It comes only i think in bonus, monentary return.

Everyday is a firefighting experience. The forest fire will never be put out despite the work done. There will be some fire in areas we didnt see, and once it spread, we will have to find the source of cultprit, the firefighter who asigns in distinguishes the fire and access the damage done and charge the firefighter for his mistake done if any. This is my impression.

Clearly, i seen enough signs my character, capabilities wasnt suitable for this line, but i still manage to struggle and do fire fighting everday. The thought of this fire will never cease and any moment, a past fire will hunt you down due to your neglience makes me sick and stressed.

However, my collegues take it in their stride, smiling, laughing. Haha. I really have to hand it to them, their ability to handle this pressure and do not take it too hard. Is it they have so much disputes in the past that they become immune and know its a matter of time, they will get burn now and then. They are still here because this work pay them fairly well and of cos, they are willlingly to accept the price.

How about me? Do i want to accept the price for this pay? Or i want to make a switch before my probation ends because im dont enjoy the work im doing despite its my initial motive to enter into this industry? I had to make a choice...

If i was to leave, where do i go?
Will the pay be better or worse, and do i accept it for the sake for mental freedom and less work load?
If the prospect is grim for the other type of work i choose than this, will i still take it? Then what will happen to my sense of achievement? Is my job position, work a important part of my life or is it just the plain monentary returns?
Will i accept the fact that i will regret the decision if i was to leave this company for another?

Carefree + $ + prospect = optimum job

Shld i use this philosophy: Life is too short, jus go with it