Living for the 26th year

How long am i going to live? Is living longer better, or living your dreams, accomplishing yr goals even within a shorter life is better off, or finding some1, build a nuclear family to fulfill our generic purpose to carry on our off spring will consider our life here worth living, or earning money, retiring young, spending your last days touring around the world, there are so many alternatives, yet we can only accomplish so little within our life time.

So few people have take on the route less travel and do according to their heart desire. Is that what i perceived as real living, the true freedom with no obligation to anyone but yrself. But in our society, one's action will definitely affect others, disrupting or over right other's freedom. There can be no freedom, but freedom define within the boundaries of the law, what is appropriate and what is wrong. Wah..im really a "freedom" freak, always asking am i really "free". Frequently, when i wake up, i feel like i'm like the people trapped in the "Matrix", theres a system which everyone is bound by, and none is free.

Perhaps im imprisoned within my own cage, that is the lack of financial freedom, the real power to enable to to break out of this repetitive cycle which i pay for with my remaining breathing years and slowing mental activity. Currently, what i desire now is the achieving of financial power to enable me to indulge in activities which i will not worry what will i need to survive on if i will not work tomorrow, i will not need to worry what will happen if sudden misforture strikes.

The only thing i worry despite having my financial freedom, is whether how long do i realy begin living life (again, what is yr definition of "living"), and how much will i miss by then (how much time will be gone), and what if i dont succeed (does all attempts and efforts amount to nothingness), haha...so much possibilities with different choice one makes at different time.

The end of the journey is not the utmost purpose, but its the journey that drives one through different stages of emotion turmoil, physical tests and mental challenges in achieving your dreams is the most exciting part of living.

Think "Freedom" in terms of time is the most valuable. Cos its a variable which cant be return to you. Thus perhaps i should make use more of my time in pursuiting my goals instead of delaying it. Then again, if u travel in space at the speed of light, you will have "extended" time since u age slowly in space when you return to earth. Haha.