Drag

Now with a FT job, seems like i have attain what i want to do, but i dont seem to be enjoying this adaption process.

i didnt pass my test, didnt clear my ippt, did many mistakes at work, trying to learn every possible work but i know i cant handle so much...ya, these are the reasons which make me feel down, idling during my weekends doing useless stuff, trying to temporary forget my lost, my failures.

I dont look forward going to work. I dislike this feeling. But i have to face reality, pick myself up soon.