Severe self inferiority?

Tink i have this mental disease, disorder. Cant help asking y cant i be as gd as others, y cant i tis, cant i that, cant accomplish this, cant get that.

Y do i strive on being the best? Do i enjoy gaining the praises from ppl who benefitted from my success (what success is there to speak of)? Or is it jus plain self egoism? Will friends, luv ones stick by u if they find some1 better than u in all ways despite what u have done for them? this will be my ans: Relationships, exchanges, arent suppose to be measure by how much time u spend, how much things u do for them, and isnt measure by how much u reciprocate. Its about being there for them when they need yr support the most. This is hard to come by, cos not every1 will be there for u. Most likely they have their own problem, better priorities in life other than being with u. Once the usefullness is gone, ur just a memory, a number in the phonebook, a msn in the chat list, an email in the address, a pixel in a networking database, but not a real place in the heart.

People meet along in the life journey, r they making use of each other to climb further, to purse goals in their self interest, or its simply a accepted norm in our society? People will always crowd ard ppl who succeed in their own way, be it being able to work in a successful company, be it earning big bucks, being one who is beautiful physically as well as intelligent..this explains the existence for underdogs.

Self inferiority...in a optimistic way, it can be term as being humble is it? haha...y not flung it when u have it. Life is short, y grumble so much. Cherish what u have now...this is what kk will say to me perhaps.